Pip

how waz ur break????? hope u had fun!!!!! and WHAT'S WRONG W/ U TELLING SNATA 2 GO FUCK HERSELF!!!!!! it's sooooo wrong!!!!she's ur friend and 2 need 2 make up!!!! she's got a broken heart cuz of u!!!!!! i know that she should have listen 2 u but she loooooved the guy!!!! i can't belive that he waz a spy!!!!! he never seemed like a spy jusy a cute and hot guy!!!! glad ur having fun on the tour!!!! can't wait 4 all u gurls 2 get 2 pittburgh on oct. 30th when i'll b at the concert!!!!! hope the cocktails w/ that guy went ok!!! tell the "gurls" mkgtweety said hi!!! trust is a powerful and precious thing!!!! remeber: "the sexiest thing is trust!!!!" mkgtweety

In childlike wonder we must hold on to the love of the universe and pass it on to all.

-Me.

and I thought I was having a sour day. I bought cookies to cheer myself up, but I think you might need them more than me. Have a cookie.

I've experienced a lot of personal and hurtful things my entire life. People I should have trusted hurt me. People who should not have hurt me...parents, brothers, sisters, ministers..there's a long list.

It's "infected" me. It's been in such a way that I'm like a dog that is injured from animal abuse. I can't bring myself to trust certain types of people. I put up a defense and keep others from getting close enough to be able to hurt me again. I "bark" and "bite" before anyone has the chance to attack...or maybe show compassion and love.

Then, if anyone criticizes me, I'm quick to go on the defense. There's really no need for that, in most cases. Pip, I hope you'll be the one to open in Phoenix this December. That concert is two days after my first wedding anniversary. It's going to be the best anniversary present ever!

thank you so much for this.

i really needed to read this tonight.

One of the hardest things was to let go of negative friends that held me down. You just gotta do it...the future brings changes that you don't expect and you have to hope for the best. Don't sell yourself short. Great words to live by. Rock on sista!

p.s. please show up in Chicago...I'd love to experience Smokey Joe!!

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It's very saddening. I was happy until a few weeks ago, now I wonder, "if all things have equal value, what is the difference in anything, truly?" Is it okay to be judgmental? Do we have to be?

I'm paralyzed lately, not knowing what is useful and what isn't. Frightened, too.

Paranoid people make me paranoid, but being complacent and trusting isn't very educational, either.

Thanks, Pip. Dunno if any of that is related to your post. It is for me.

this is exactly how i feel at this moment.

I don't know how to get away from the infection when I don't seem to have an antedote, or when I do not have the energy to reach for the antedote. Pip, if you could tell me how, I would greatly appreciate it. Also, how do you know when you are your own infection or when someone else has infected you? I need some backbone, or more truthfully, some insight and then the backbone to use it. Any help is appreciated.

What is the best way to control the spread of infections? According to the CDC the answer is handwashing. It seems a simple solution Pip, doesn't it? At least thirty seconds in hot, soapy water and all of the germs go right down the drain. Perhaps you can practice this effort in other ways. "wash your hands of it" has never been a more appropriate colloquialism. Get rid of it. Pip, get it down the drain GIRRRRLLL!

It is good to have friends to help you cleanse the demons and come to peace. I wish this for you my friend...I really do. I LOVE YOU PIP!!!! I LOVE YOU TORI!!!! love, Ellen

I had a dream that we spoke last night in a grocery store, and we had a conversation about creating and human darkness. Strange. You were also being mobbed by fans, so it was brief.

Pip, trust is an interesting,complex thing. to fully trust your friends, you must first be able to trust yourself. you wish to interogate those who you trust, because you need to feel safe, and need to reinforce the self-trust that you have done the right thing in confiding, and (not to sound redundant)trusting in these people. make no mistake, these people will let you down at times, mostly by accident, but for the most part you must cautiously believe that they will do the right thing. This infection that you speak of, only spread if people let it spread. try to cut it off, and be wise and merciful in any battle that may be forced to start in order to end the greater war.

Thanks Pip.. you just helped me more, forcing me to think that out, then you'll ever really know

seem to have the same modus operandi.

I find that if you keep nihilists and zombies at a distance of twenty-five feet then you can tend to outrun them both. Zombies have a tendency to shuffle, and nihilists don't seem to care all that much.

Although, if you encounter a pseudo-nihilist, or someone who professes not to care when in fact they care very much, you could be screwed. As they are both tenacious and fast.

The infection isn't the problem. It's what caused it. Most of all boredom and second of all dissatisfication. To be nihilistic is to accept that there is a subconscious and like the devil secretly works for god we end up back to square one..forcing the truth out of the ones we assume we "trust" just like a plunger would do to a toilet.We wouldn't have to if it was truly proven. I believe it's because trust and faith are in the same category. Those who haven't been reassured of a maker will simply call it faith and pray at their most vulnerable times.Those who their maker has proven they exist no longer call it faith but call it devotion and true love and pray at all times even at there strongest because they are no longer lonely. Trust is the equivalent to faith because unless we are with ourselves, our "better half" would no longer need trust.But we aren't with ourselves so we just run to them with faith in hopes that our needs (prayers) will be fulfilled. That can't be proven so how can it be true love unless it's been proven spiritually. Which tends to rerun the objective of nihilism. I enjoy being this so called "infection". If I weren't then the only other option would be to become a realistic human and live to procreate,work and then only be guaranteed death. That's one guarantee we recieve in this world..death. You don't need faith or trust to understand that. It creeps up faster then we assume it to. Then we end up old in a cottage dead and alone in a wooden rocking chair. Tough shit..sometimes we'll come back to chase an infection.

faith and existentialism coexist. there is proof in the living. : )

Well they do coexist ..especially if you are Friedrich Nietzsche. However the movement of it never moved me much.Rationalism is still the equivalent of an unproven emotion. I suppose rapists,serial killers and baby killers all think they are living to accept their own personal existentialism as well. Least to say it doesn't give much room for the nihilism of the world does it. Interesting aspect though. :)

Forgot to log in for that last reply. Sorry about that.

The Nature of evil is Darkness. Not that Soft, Sweet, Nurturing Darkness of a mothers Womb, But the Darkness that causes inner blindness. That is the darkness prevents one from finding their own inner light and creative power. The Blind Lead the Blind because they need company in their darkness, cause thats a lonely place. And in their pain they seek to destroy themselves and to drag others into their pit of self annihilation. And that is the Root of destruction, destruction of the self and others. A good example is that guy on this list who said that tori was never raped. Thats why I told him to go fuck himself.

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I totally empathize....

...see you in two months....

Infection and"Dis-ease" occurs when there is a disruption in homeostasis within an organism...be that an individual or a collective consciousness. One can only become infected when the vital force is blocked, compromising the natural immune response of the body, which then can allow a pathogen to establish itself.
It is important here to examine the role of disease. Infection creates inflammation and pain. This pain...be it physical, emotional, mental or spiritual is an alarm bell that, despite our inclination to ignore, will continue to increase in volume until action is taken to correct the underlying lack of balance. In this way, infection and disease can serve us if we are willing to open our ears and eyes and understand what needs to be done to restore health.
Dear Pip....Nihilism can only infect those who feel disconnected from the divine. Faith is needed here; the kind of faith that is felt deep within the body and the spirit. It is a deep understanding on every level that we are not alone here. Pray for a sign that you are connected to and part of the greatness that surrounds you, and if your request is sincere, you will receive what is needed.

Love Rae

Pip, the correct spelling of the word you meant to use is "bear".

Can we as a community, as a culture, as individuals, brew a potion that can heal the poison 0f the deadly dragon?

Or shall we watch as it devours itself and all things with it?

It is pretty nihilistic

First an alchemical tear, into the cauldron shall we?

The tear born of compassion, love and understanding.

A drop of pure blood from a heart infused with fire, that says no more complacency, we will work for change and defend those who suffer.

Now lets add some

Salt of a firm foundation rooted in the harmony of nature, so we can learn to live in peace with her, not against her.

Equal portions please.

This bloody stage may turn black so realize that change takes time so we should remain committed.

Past the heads on the spikes beware, one of those potions is poison and a lot of men failed before, or so they told me!

a fourleaf clover is always perfect!

yes be polite!

Wait a moment I see a bit of whiteness here!

First you must know that every act, is an act of creation. We create situations in our lives that are good or bad because that is the nature of our existance of being alive. yet we must understand that we are all co creators in this world. None of us create alone.

That is the Nature of the Duality of our world. Male and Female, Goddess and God, Male and Female, Light and Dark.

And what we create, we create out of desire, and that is the nature of love.

And there is an old magical adage, that like draws like, like produces like, and like affects like, thefore what you choose to do makes a difference.

Therefor if we desire to make our lives better, we must perform those actions that will make it better and draw those influences into our lives that are good.

Yet not everyone around us understands this, so that many of their actions are shallow, or callous or cruel, so sometimes we must soldier on even if its difficult, because the land and culture have lost their inner light, they create out of darkness, and that is the nature of modern life.

Yet we can overcome this, but first we need to have awareness of these principles and that inner light and power.

lets take an honest look at our situation and see what we have created and how aware we are.

But this might be a bit uncomfortable for us right now, but we need to take an honest look at this so we can heal and begin to gain from it.

Dark nights of the soul are always dark and dragons are a bitch but the longest night is always followed by the longest day!

Ok the first cycle is complete, lets filter it and run the cycle again!

yes that is a deck of cards!

I think you must agree that we have not been aware, cause we have been asleep in your own lives, and not an active participant in their creation, thefor the negative influences around us like mister Bush have been creating our lives for us.

And they will continue to do so untill we wake up and take responsibility for creating our own reality, shaped the way we all truly desire it to be.

And so, there is a way out of this, if we would turn and challenge ourselves to grab ahold of our own power.

And that is the power of the will, and inner strength, to create what you desire and manifest it in the world.

And all of that is really the true secrets to true power, what many think they really hide, really its no secret at all. Simple common sense is wisdom after all.

First we all need to take an honest look at our situation and remember this is not a blame game at all. Not of ourselves or of others.

Then make an honest assesment of what we want and need to change and where we want to be, and then create and take the necessary steps to get us there. And soldier on girls and boys, soldier on.

I for one dont want to be stuck with the burning bush on the mountain and a thousand points of light fallin on the waters and burnin up the trees that I love, or chained in some hellhole somewhere, but thats exactly where we will all be if we dont all stand up and find our voice thats been silent all these years!

Dammit pip, your makin me political Now!

Now lets set it this out in the moonlight for awhile and filter it some more before we go on to the next stage!

I'm still reeling that they took that boy. He was a nuisance, annoying, overstepping. But instead of taking him outside like normally they would, they electrocuted him with a compact portable device named after Thomas A. Smith. Edison would have been proud.

There were protests the following day, but the kids in the room just sat there watching while it happened. No-one tried to stop it, one girl started screaming.

What the fuck is going on?

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hi! mkgtweety here!!!! my little gurl cousin wants 2 say hi! 2 u pip!!!! i {s.h.} like the way u dress and act!!! also i like ur rubber tights!!!!!! tell isabel that i said hi!!!! and that i loooove the way that she acts and dresses!!!!! c-ya!!!! S.H.

Dear Pip-

Hey, is this the Pip I met in Hollywood 4 or 5 years ago? My name is Kurt Vanzo (www.anakinfilms.com), and I had a cool friend I lost contact with, she had red hair and a great attitude (would probably be about 26 by now). If it's you Pip, you can contact me anytime at kurt@anakinfilms.com

Thanks and take care,

-Kurt (from Rugrats)

When I accuse one I care deeply for, it is because I fear love. I can only hope that those who believe in that big bad "Nothing" can find the courage to trust. Because, ultimately I know who I trust and whose has the trust to return the Wisdom. So Tori, hopin' to see you soon. At the least Chicago and Murat.

I'm ready to MODULATE, girl!

rollo may, in his book "courage to create" talks about our need as create beings to find form and take it on. i think its the way the life of the inner world stands to the mirror of endless existence and reflects the outer-world, the movement she witnesses in her co-creation. so nihilism, although can disguise itself within human emotion, has no form. its forever separated from itself in any attempts to bring together, to unify. m. scott peck, in his book "people of the lie" talks about victimization as symbiosis. the parasitic attempts to survive vicariously off another life form without reciprocating its own life-giving energy. just as you spoke for example, in your conversations of those who do this being nameless and faceless, scott defines the people of the lie as, not those who commit deamed acts of "sin", but rather, those who are unable to admit the harm they cause others and a willingness to correct the aggressor in themselves.

OMG pleaseeeeeeeeee play a setlist in Illinois like you did for the 10.11.07 NY concert!! That was perfect Pip!! I would love to see you there with all those songs...you are the bomb :)

Hm. Sometimes infections are not a bad thing. They push the body to work harder. It is a darkness, but one that urges the body into action. One does not always have to fall victim to darkness. You can recognize it and acknowledge it (must acknowledge it to satisfy its narcissism)....but then learn from and use it to your own ends. After a body has overcome the infection, there is a certain cleansing that has occurred...almost like sweating the fever out has sweat out certain other difficulties in life. Maybe the urge to interrogate those you trust is really an instinct to question yourself re whether those people should really be trusted.

Very powerful, Pip...
You are a warrior.

thank you being in New York on October 11th, you are truly a remarkable women pip

Amen.

Sorrow is always the more popular friend, with her coffee black eyelashes and post-sex smell.

I'm a long way behind in commenting on this post. In fact, on the day this was written I was out on my very first date with myself, eating salted pork in a red wine sauce, with a side order of tentative self confidence. But I kind of think that synchronicity has no sell-by date.

So, thank you Pip. I thought I was Santa's girl, but I'm blossoming into the multi-dimensional and am curious about what you have to say...

Pip, what is this I hear about mothers pimping their daughters out to federal agents? You are the only one who seems to have words for this issue which has been silenced here in the States.

Were are you girl! Talk to us baby! I'd love to know how you experienced the second Chicago show!

love MarianneRose

So...how come there have not been any dad and connor updates for a while?

i followed sleep who kissed me in the brain fatally...then awoke on a nihilistic-spiked plane.

pip, this infection has tentacles. how can i defend myself, remove it & recover?

Nihilism is not a plane of existence. Nihilism spikes through onto this plane, its chords gripping a human and then infecting. The infection makes its way on neural pathways- the human, unsuspecting. These humans then proceed to infect and debilitate a person who is beginning to make positive changes in their life because the infector cannot bare those who choose to create with life, those who are striving to pull themselves out of denigration- out of victimization. So they attack. They spew accusations or catchy rhetoric to the unaware. Beware. They can begin to put you on the defense and that which is true. The ‘he said’ or ‘she said’ of it all is a trap. A trap of smoke and mirrors. Where have I been? The mind’s diminishing wisdom submits to discrediting truth or discrediting those I should trust. Why do I want to interrogate those I trust? When I ask myself this I know the infection has begun. </br> REPLY: Perhaps not a plane of existence, but certainly a state of being - or Mind if you prefer - that may exist in and on various levels, e.g. limbo (although officially abolished, it remains a force that does not simply disappear by decree), or one of Dante's Seven Circles of Hell (perhaps the one guarded by the 3-Headed Dog-Beast Cerberus, which with its nasty tri-toned barking may be apropos to the vocal productions of the gainsayers, naysayers, the he say / she says, the ones who would drag you down to to the miserable self-centered permanent pity party (or worse: the morally elite) of their "existence" (if I may be permitted to use that term). Whatever, you are right on and out of sight... Me, me and me? I would toss the disease metaphor out with the water (hold that baby!); it is already more overworked than the "war" on this. the war on that, or the war on this or that (and why not make it a globalized War-Fest?) that the West is so fond of as explanatory principles that explain nothing ("nihil" = nothing). On traps: they probably come in more forms than smoke and mirrors, I mean if I am looking in the mirror and smoking a cigarette, that is only a trap if I allow myself to be drawn deep into the well of Narcissism (oh yeah, like I would forget, of course the cigarettes: well naturally those effin' nails are going to kill me, but the first essential fact of life is the cessation of physical existence, i.e., life - at least for the present incarnation if one is given over to such metaphysical hogwash - which I am). Interrogation, in the postmodern sense, or even better - the dialogical methodology of critical pedagogy is a reasonable and right thing to do (both with self and others) without devolving to petty nastiness. On the other hand, there is that time-honored version of interrogation known as the third degree.... and I walked (trucked, I don't strut) in as usual with the hat (the hat among many hats) and I am always defiant (although at that point, I did not know that song) - but I well mellow too, and the sting of your voice and keyboards is sweet sweet; and I don't think we will be meeting on the cinnabar fields this lifetime (perhaps never), but there are other tantric dimensions, and that's cool. And so what? You exist, you are real, you are...Later...note from another music conservatory brat. How about extending an invite to friendship and we can swap some music theory stories (I was taking that stuff with college-age students when I was 11). Oh yeah, isn't self-awareness, the kind of recognition you speak of in your last line, the first insight that allows one to recognize the pattern of behavior and thought that it is difficult, but not impossible, to change with both desire and spiritual focus/guidance? In closing, you were fabulous in Cleveland on 01 November, 2007...I mean if ever I needed a fix, cause I was way past down..and so, that was a passing phase, just one more iteration of the harmonies of light and shadow

Edited at 2007-11-20 06:41 pm (UTC)

Pip, I saw you perform last night in Clearwater, FL and I just wanted to let you know I thought you were fabulous. You made my day! Thanks for the show. =)

when does one know? nihilism can not spring from one's own mind but from the others mind, often something opposes what you try to create through life and one has to stand above it or be smothered by hoards of people that claim to hold the truth, which is assassination of the souls of those who are not part of the selection of individuals that classify all the others, keeping the options 'enslave now' and 'enslave when we have enough power' open. It is all about power. The enemy urges you to interrogate and question the ones you love, its a virus in disguise of an analysis of the soul. Redefine what was annihilated, and keep it to yourself. Give them no power over you, because they only pretend to be a big mass that can swallow your star intact. I am the tide, and i am by your side.

Make love, not war!

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Oh my god, you have no idea how much I miss your performances, Pip. I wish you were actually a separate person so that you could do your very own tour while Tori takes a break. If only...